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“有没有连麦睡觉的？找个人一起睡觉。”

15分钟前，我发了这条动态。

今天是我下载空空语音的第28天，每天晚上我都想找一个连麦睡觉的人。

睡觉前聊几句生活琐事，然后互道晚安，慢慢睡着。

听着手机那边传来的细细的呼吸声，翻身时身体与床单的摩擦声，让心情慢慢沉静下来。

然而今天找的过程却异常漫长。

发完动态，等待回复，或者主动去找一些连麦睡觉的人都无果后。

就在我快要放弃的时候，我刷到一个声音和初恋有点像的女孩。

我的初恋，自从高中毕业，已经7年没见了。

我承认，我像个小偷，只想偷了这声音私藏。

上次咱们讲到了：

Itwaslong.TheyreachedMansfieldonThursday,anditwasnottillSundayeveningthatEdmundbegantotalktoheronthesubject.SittingwithheronSundayevening--awetSundayevening--theverytimeofallotherswhen,ifafriendisathand,theheartmustbeopened,andeverythingtold;nooneelseintheroom,excepthismother,who,afterhearinganaffectingsermon,hadcriedherselftosleep,itwasimpossiblenottospeak;andso,withtheusualbeginnings,hardlytobetracedastowhatcamefirst,andtheusualdeclarationthatifshewouldlistentohimforafewminutes,heshouldbeverybrief,andcertainlynevertaxherkindnessinthesamewayagain;sheneednotfeararepetition;itwouldbeasubjectprohibitedentirely:heenteredupontheluxuryofrelatingcircumstancesandsensationsofthefirstinteresttohimself,tooneofwhoseaffectionatesympathyhewasquiteconvinced.HowFannylistened,withwhatcuriosityandconcern,whatpainandwhatdelight,howtheagitation55ofhisvoicewaswatched,andhowcarefullyherowneyeswerefixedonanyobjectbuthimself,maybeimagined.Theopeningwasalarming.HehadseenMissCrawford.Hehadbeeninvitedtoseeher.HehadreceivedanotefromLadyStornawaytobeghimtocall;andregardingitaswhatwasmeanttobethelast,lastinterviewoffriendship,andinvestingherwithallthefeelingsofshameandwretchednesswhichCrawford'ssisteroughttohaveknown,hehadgonetoherinsuchastateofmind,sosoftened56,sodevoted,asmadeitforafewmomentsimpossibletoFanny'sfearsthatitshouldbethelast.Butasheproceededinhisstory,thesefearswereover.Shehadmethim,hesaid,withaserious--certainlyaserious--evenanagitated57air;butbeforehehadbeenabletospeakoneintelligible58sentence,shehadintroducedthesubjectinamannerwhichheownedhadshockedhim."'Iheardyouwereintown,'saidshe;'Iwantedtoseeyou.Letustalkoverthissadbusiness.Whatcanequalthefollyofourtworelations?'Icouldnotanswer,butIbelievemylooksspoke59.Shefeltreproved.Sometimeshowquicktofeel!Withagraverlookandvoiceshethenadded,'IdonotmeantodefendHenryatyoursister'sexpense.'Soshebegan,buthowshewenton,Fanny,isnotfit,ishardlyfittoberepeatedtoyou.Icannotrecallallherwords.IwouldnotdwelluponthemifIcould.Theirsubstancewasgreatangeratthefollyofeach.Shereprobatedherbrother'sfollyinbeingdrawn60onbyawomanwhomhehadnevercaredfor,todowhatmustlosehimthewomanheadored;butstillmorethefollyofpoorMaria,insacrificingsuchasituation,plunging61intosuchdifficulties,undertheideaofbeingreallylovedbyamanwhohadlongagomadehisindifferenceclear.GuesswhatImusthavefelt.Tohearthewomanwhom--noharshernamethanfollygiven!Sovoluntarily,sofreely,socoollytocanvass62it!Noreluctance63,nohorror,nofeminine,shallIsay,nomodestloathings?Thisiswhattheworlddoes.Forwhere,Fanny,shallwefindawomanwhomnaturehadsorichlyendowed?Spoilt,spoilt!"Afteralittlereflection,hewentonwithasortofdesperatecalmness."Iwilltellyoueverything,andthenhavedoneforever.Shesawitonlyasfolly,andthatfollystampedonlybyexposure.Thewantofcommondiscretion,ofcaution:hisgoingdowntoRichmondforthewholetimeofherbeingatTwickenham;herputtingherselfinthepowerofaservant;itwasthedetection,inshort--oh,Fanny!itwasthedetection,nottheoffence,whichshereprobated.Itwastheimprudencewhichhadbroughtthingstoextremity64,andobligedherbrothertogiveupeverydearerplaninordertoflywithher."Hestopt."Andwhat,"saidFanny(believingherselfrequiredtospeak),"whatcouldyousay?""Nothing,nothingtobeunderstood.Iwaslikeamanstunned65.Shewenton,begantotalkofyou;yes,thenshebegantotalkofyou,regretting,aswellshemight,thelossofsucha--.Thereshespokeveryrationally.Butshehasalwaysdonejusticetoyou.'Hehasthrownaway,'saidshe,'suchawomanashewillneverseeagain.Shewouldhavefixedhim;shewouldhavemadehimhappyforever.'MydearestFanny,Iamgivingyou,Ihope,morepleasurethanpainbythisretrospect66ofwhatmighthavebeen--butwhatnevercanbenow.Youdonotwishmetobesilent?Ifyoudo,givemebutalook,aword,andIhavedone."Nolookorwordwasgiven."ThankGod,"saidhe."Wewerealldisposedtowonder,butitseemstohavebeenthemercifulappointmentofProvidence67thattheheartwhichknewnoguile68shouldnotsuffer.Shespokeofyouwithhighpraiseandwarmaffection;yet,evenhere,therewasalloy69,adashofevil;forinthemidstofitshecouldexclaim,'Whywouldnotshehavehim?Itisallherfault.Simplegirl!Ishallneverforgiveher.Hadsheacceptedhimassheought,theymightnowhavebeenonthepointofmarriage,andHenrywouldhavebeentoohappyandtoobusytowantanyotherobject.HewouldhavetakennopainstobeontermswithMrs.Rushworthagain.Itwouldhaveallendedinaregularstanding70flirtation71,inyearlymeetingsatSothertonandEveringham.'Couldyouhavebelieveditpossible?Butthecharmisbroken.Myeyesareopened."

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