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Heraffectionswerenotacute,norwashermindtenacious21.Afteratime,Fannyfounditnotimpossibletodirectherthoughtstoothersubjects,andrevivesomeinterestintheusualoccupations;butwheneverLadyBertramwasfixed22ontheevent,shecouldseeitonlyinonelight,ascomprehendingthelossofadaughter,andadisgracenevertobewipedoff.Fannylearntfromheralltheparticularswhichhadyettranspired23.Herauntwasnoverymethodicalnarrator,butwiththehelpofsomeletterstoandfromSirThomas,andwhatshealreadyknewherself,andcouldreasonablycombine,shewassoonabletounderstandquiteasmuchasshewishedofthecircumstancesattendingthestory.Mrs.Rushworthhadgone,fortheEasterholidays,toTwickenham,withafamilywhomshehadjustgrownintimatewith:afamilyoflively,agreeablemanners,andprobablyofmoralsanddiscretion24tosuit,fortotheirhouseMr.Crawfordhadconstantaccessatalltimes.HishavingbeeninthesameneighbourhoodFannyalreadyknew.Mr.RushworthhadbeengoneatthistimetoBath,topassafewdayswithhismother,andbringherbacktotown,andMariawaswiththesefriendswithoutanyrestraint,withoutevenJulia;forJuliahadremovedfromWimpoleStreettwoorthreeweeksbefore,onavisittosomerelationsofSirThomas;aremovalwhichherfatherandmotherwerenowdisposedtoattributetosomeviewofconvenienceonMr.Yates'saccount.VerysoonaftertheRushworths'returntoWimpoleStreet,SirThomashadreceivedaletterfromanoldandmostparticularfriendinLondon,whohearingandwitnessingagooddealtoalarmhiminthatquarter,wrotetorecommendSirThomas'scomingtoLondonhimself,andusinghisinfluencewithhisdaughtertoputanendtotheintimacy25whichwasalreadyexposinghertounpleasantremarks,andevidentlymakingMr.Rushworthuneasy.SirThomaswaspreparingtoactuponthisletter,withoutcommunicatingitscontentstoanycreatureatMansfield,whenitwasfollowedbyanother,sentexpressfromthesamefriend,tobreaktohimthealmostdesperatesituationinwhichaffairsthenstoodwiththeyoungpeople.Mrs.Rushworthhadleftherhusband'shouse:Mr.Rushworthhadbeeningreatangeranddistress26tohim(Mr.Harding)forhisadvice;Mr.Hardingfearedtherehadbeenatleastveryflagrantindiscretion.ThemaidservantofMrs.Rushworth,senior,threatenedalarmingly.Hewasdoingallinhispowertoquieteverything,withthehopeofMrs.Rushworth'sreturn,butwassomuchcounteracted28inWimpoleStreetbytheinfluenceofMr.Rushworth'smother,thattheworstconsequencesmightbeapprehended29.Thisdreadfulcommunicationcouldnotbekeptfromtherestofthefamily.SirThomassetoff,Edmundwouldgowithhim,andtheothershadbeenleftinastateofwretchedness,inferioronlytowhatfollowedthereceiptofthenextlettersfromLondon.Everythingwasbythattimepublicbeyondahope.TheservantofMrs.Rushworth,themother,hadexposureinherpower,andsupportedbyhermistress,wasnottobesilenced.Thetwoladies,evenintheshorttimetheyhadbeentogether,haddisagreed;andthebitternessoftheelderagainstherdaughter-in-lawmightperhapsarisealmostasmuchfromthepersonaldisrespectwithwhichshehadherselfbeentreatedasfromsensibilityforherson.Howeverthatmightbe,shewasunmanageable.Buthadshebeenlessobstinate30,oroflessweightwithherson,whowasalwaysguidedbythelastspeaker,bythepersonwhocouldgetholdofandshuthimup,thecasewouldstillhavebeenhopeless,forMrs.Rushworthdidnotappearagain,andtherewaseveryreasontoconcludehertobeconcealed31somewherewithMr.Crawford,whohadquittedhisuncle'shouse,asforajourney,ontheverydayofherabsentingherself.SirThomas,however,remainedyetalittlelongerintown,inthehopeofdiscoveringandsnatchingherfromfarthervice27,thoughallwaslostonthesideofcharacter.HispresentstateFannycouldhardlybeartothinkof.Therewasbutoneofhischildrenwhowasnotatthistimeasourceofmisery32tohim.Tom'scomplaintshadbeengreatlyheightenedbytheshockofhissister'sconduct,andhisrecoverysomuchthrownbackbyit,thatevenLadyBertramhadbeenstruckbythedifference,andallheralarmswereregularlysentofftoherhusband;andJulia'selopement,theadditionalblowwhichhadmethimonhisarrivalinLondon,thoughitsforcehadbeendeadenedatthemoment,must,sheknew,besorelyfelt.Shesawthatitwas.Hislettersexpressedhowmuchhedeplored33it.Underanycircumstancesitwouldhavebeenanunwelcomealliance;buttohaveitsoclandestinely34formed,andsuchaperiodchosenforitscompletion,placedJulia'sfeelingsinamostunfavourablelight,andseverely35aggravated36thefolly37ofherchoice.Hecalleditabadthing,doneintheworstmanner,andattheworsttime;andthoughJuliawasyetasmorepardonablethanMariaasfollythanvice,hecouldnotbutregardthestepshehadtakenasopeningtheworstprobabilitiesofaconclusionhereafterlikehersister's.Suchwashisopinionofthesetintowhichshehadthrownherself.Fannyfeltforhimmostacutely.HecouldhavenocomfortbutinEdmund.Everyotherchildmustberackinghisheart.Hisdispleasureagainstherselfshetrusted,reasoningdifferentlyfromMrs.Norris,wouldnowbedoneaway.Sheshouldbejustified38.Mr.Crawfordwouldhavefully39acquitted40herconductinrefusinghim;butthis,thoughmostmaterialtoherself,wouldbepoorconsolationtoSirThomas.Heruncle'sdispleasurewasterribletoher;butwhatcouldherjustification41orhergratitude42andattachment43doforhim?HisstaymustbeonEdmundalone.Shewasmistaken,however,insupposingthatEdmundgavehisfathernopresentpain.Itwasofamuchlesspoignant44naturethanwhattheothersexcited;butSirThomaswasconsideringhishappinessasverydeeplyinvolvedintheoffenceofhissisterandfriend;cutoffbyit,ashemustbe,fromthewomanwhomhehadbeenpursuingwithundoubtedattachmentandstrongprobabilityofsuccess;andwho,ineverythingbutthisdespicablebrother,wouldhavebeensoeligible45aconnexion.HewasawareofwhatEdmundmustbesufferingonhisownbehalf,inadditiontoalltherest,whentheywereintown:hehadseenorconjectured46hisfeelings;and,havingreasontothinkthatoneinterviewwithMissCrawfordhadtakenplace,fromwhichEdmundderived47onlyincreaseddistress,hadbeenasanxiousonthataccountasonotherstogethimoutoftown,andhadengagedhimintakingFannyhometoheraunt,withaviewtohisreliefandbenefit,nolessthantheirs.Fannywasnotinthesecretofheruncle'sfeelings,SirThomasnotinthesecretofMissCrawford'scharacter.Hadhebeenprivy48toherconversationwithhisson,hewouldnothavewishedhertobelongtohim,thoughhertwentythousandpoundshadbeenforty.ThatEdmundmustbeforeverdividedfromMissCrawforddidnotadmitofadoubtwithFanny;andyet,tillsheknewthathefeltthesame,herownconvictionwasinsufficient49.Shethoughthedid,butshewantedtobeassuredofit.Ifhewouldnowspeaktoherwiththeunreservewhichhadsometimesbeentoomuchforherbefore,itwouldbemostconsoling;butthatshefoundwasnottobe.Sheseldomsawhim:neveralone.Heprobablyavoidedbeingalonewithher.Whatwastobeinferred?Thathisjudgment50submittedtoallhisownpeculiar51andbittershareofthisfamilyaffliction,butthatitwastookeenlyfelttobeasubjectoftheslightestcommunication.Thismustbehisstate.Heyielded,butitwaswithagonieswhichdidnotadmitofspeech.Long,longwoulditbeereMissCrawford'snamepassedhislipsagain,orshecouldhopeforarenewal52ofsuchconfidential53intercourse54ashadbeen.Itwaslong.TheyreachedMansfieldonThursday,anditwasnottillSundayeveningthatEdmundbegantotalktoheronthesubject.SittingwithheronSundayevening--awetSundayevening--theverytimeofallotherswhen,ifafriendisathand,theheartmustbeopened,andeverythingtold;nooneelseintheroom,excepthismother,who,afterhearinganaffectingsermon,hadcriedherselftosleep,itwasimpossiblenottospeak;andso,withtheusualbeginnings,hardlytobetracedastowhatcamefirst,andtheusualdeclarationthatifshewouldlistentohimforafewminutes,heshouldbeverybrief,andcertainlynevertaxherkindnessinthesamewayagain;sheneednotfeararepetition;itwouldbeasubjectprohibitedentirely:heenteredupontheluxuryofrelatingcircumstancesandsensationsofthefirstinteresttohimself,tooneofwhoseaffectionatesympathyhewasquiteconvinced.HowFannylistened,withwhatcuriosityandconcern,whatpainandwhatdelight,howtheagitation55ofhisvoicewaswatched,andhowcarefullyherowneyeswerefixedonanyobjectbuthimself,maybeimagined.Theopeningwasalarming.HehadseenMissCrawford.Hehadbeeninvitedtoseeher.HehadreceivedanotefromLadyStornawaytobeghimtocall;andregardingitaswhatwasmeanttobethelast,lastinterviewoffriendship,andinvestingherwithallthefeelingsofshameandwretchednesswhichCrawford'ssisteroughttohaveknown,hehadgonetoherinsuchastateofmind,sosoftened56,sodevoted,asmadeitforafewmomentsimpossibletoFanny'sfearsthatitshouldbethelast.Butasheproceededinhisstory,thesefearswereover.Shehadmethim,hesaid,withaserious--certainlyaserious--evenanagitated57air;butbeforehehadbeenabletospeakoneintelligible58sentence,shehadintroducedthesubjectinamannerwhichheownedhadshockedhim."'Iheardyouwereintown,'saidshe;'Iwantedtoseeyou.Letustalkoverthissadbusiness.Whatcanequalthefollyofourtworelations?'Icouldnotanswer,butIbelievemylooksspoke59.Shefeltreproved.Sometimeshowquicktofeel!Withagraverlookandvoiceshethenadded,'IdonotmeantodefendHenryatyoursister'sexpense.'Soshebegan,buthowshewenton,Fanny,isnotfit,ishardlyfittoberepeatedtoyou.Icannotrecallallherwords.IwouldnotdwelluponthemifIcould.Theirsubstancewasgreatangeratthefollyofeach.Shereprobatedherbrother'sfollyinbeingdrawn60onbyawomanwhomhehadnevercaredfor,todowhatmustlosehimthewomanheadored;butstillmorethefollyofpoorMaria,insacrificingsuchasituation,plunging61intosuchdifficulties,undertheideaofbeingreallylovedbyamanwhohadlongagomadehisindifferenceclear.GuesswhatImusthavefelt.Tohearthewomanwhom--noharshernamethanfollygiven!Sovoluntarily,sofreely,socoollytocanvass62it!Noreluctance63,nohorror,nofeminine,shallIsay,nomodestloathings?Thisiswhattheworlddoes.Forwhere,Fanny,shallwefindawomanwhomnaturehadsorichlyendowed?Spoilt,spoilt!"Afteralittlereflection,hewentonwithasortofdesperatecalmness."Iwilltellyoueverything,andthenhavedoneforever.Shesawitonlyasfolly,andthatfollystampedonlybyexposure.Thewantofcommondiscretion,ofcaution:hisgoingdowntoRichmondforthewholetimeofherbeingatTwickenham;herputtingherselfinthepowerofaservant;itwasthedetection,inshort--oh,Fanny!itwasthedetection,nottheoffence,whichshereprobated.Itwastheimprudencewhichhadbroughtthingstoextremity64,andobligedherbrothertogiveupeverydearerplaninordertoflywithher."Hestopt."Andwhat,"saidFanny(believingherselfrequiredtospeak),"whatcouldyousay?""Nothing,nothingtobeunderstood.Iwaslikeamanstunned65.Shewenton,begantotalkofyou;yes,thenshebegantotalkofyou,regretting,aswellshemight,thelossofsucha--.Thereshespokeveryrationally.Butshehasalwaysdonejusticetoyou.'Hehasthrownaway,'saidshe,'suchawomanashewillneverseeagain.Shewouldhavefixedhim;shewouldhavemadehimhappyforever.'MydearestFanny,Iamgivingyou,Ihope,morepleasurethanpainbythisretrospect66ofwhatmighthavebeen--butwhatnevercanbenow.Youdonotwishmetobesilent?Ifyoudo,givemebutalook,aword,andIhavedone."Nolookorwordwasgiven."ThankGod,"saidhe."Wewerealldisposedtowonder,butitseemstohavebeenthemercifulappointmentofProvidence67thattheheartwhichknewnoguile68shouldnotsuffer.Shespokeofyouwithhighpraiseandwarmaffection;yet,evenhere,therewasalloy69,adashofevil;forinthemidstofitshecouldexclaim,'Whywouldnotshehavehim?Itisallherfault.Simplegirl!Ishallneverforgiveher.Hadsheacceptedhimassheought,theymightnowhavebeenonthepointofmarriage,andHenrywouldhavebeentoohappyandtoobusytowantanyotherobject.HewouldhavetakennopainstobeontermswithMrs.Rushworthagain.Itwouldhaveallendedinaregularstanding70flirtation71,inyearlymeetingsatSothertonandEveringham.'Couldyouhavebelieveditpossible?Butthecharmisbroken.Myeyesareopened.""Cruel!"saidFanny,"quitecruel.Atsuchamomenttogivewaytogaiety,tospeakwithlightness,andtoyou!Absolutecruelty."

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